Everyone handles sadness & grief differently. Some people cry, some people talk about it and some people just laugh it off, trying to make themselves and everyone else around them happy and laugh.
Me, on the other like to keep it and keep piling on other things until I have to have an ugly cry and be locked in my room for hours. I don’t want to talk to anyone. I don’t want to laugh. I just want to cry and try to feel balanced again. I was taught as a little girl that crying is a sign of weakness and there is not a really good reason to cry until you’re at a funeral or a wedding. Sad and happy tears, reasonable tears.
So I don’t cry and when I do, I feel even worse because it’s a sign of weakness. But my best guy friend is trying to change that. He’s doing well so far… I’ve cried today, but I don’t hate myself like I use too and it goes under one of the categories that I was taught to cry for.
I wish I was a normal person sometimes, but then again I don’t want to be normal… It gets boring
See Ya Later
Emmie <3
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