Hey guys,
So I typed a whole paragraph and then I shut my phone and now everything is gone. So imma try to remember everything I typed.
So my best friends, friends I dont know what we are right now. I guess we're staring over. And it's mostly my fault for showing my emotions wrong. Maybe instead of being pissed and blocking them and ignoring, I should have talked about it. And now they know about this blog. They know about the posts and how I felt and how I think... which friends should know everything.
I'm not sure if I can be the same with them knowing everything. I feel sick to my stomach, and I feel nervous to hangout with them. Like do they like the same things? Have they changed? I'm probably just gonna keep my mouth shut. I feel bad, but it's how I felt. And it sucks that it came out like this.
So this post is just pretty much rethinking writing anymore, this was supposed to help me feel better. Help me think about not cutting, help me think about this is helping someone else out there, but so far I've hurt my this two best friends in the world. And now we are on a restart....
Should I stop writing? Should I be more aware of what I'm typing and putting out into the world, even tho my opinion and thoughts matters too? I dont know. I guess we'll see if I post.
See Ya Later
Emmie < 3
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