Feeling Some Type of Way

Hey Guys,

Sorry it's been awhile, I've been super busy with drama everywhere. Coming Left and Right. Once something seems all good and dandy (I think that's how you spell it, but by now you guys should know I'm bad at spelling), anyways; One disagreement with a group of friends and then got that handled and then the other group was upset, got that under control and then my single friends (the ones that can't mixed with the two groups) feels like I don't spend enough time with them. I just wish I had more hours in the day, I wish I had enough time for everyone! I wish I had enough time for my family too, but sadly I don't.

But anyways back to the main reason why I'm typing this. So Sunday Night/ Monday Morning, which was also Labor Day, we threw a party and I had fun, I was happy, I was enjoying myself. I might have sent some messages through Snapchat and a few people and I said sorry to most of them. The next morning sucked because I had to work and I didn't get enough sleep, but Hungover Emmie started thinking.  How I treat my friends, How they treat me and How I feel like I shouldn't be in their little group sometimes. I honestly try to be super nice, I try to tell myself that I'm worth the niceness I relieve, that I'm just overthinking stuff (Which we all know I am), but you know its sometimes to hear "Hey Emmie, You look cute today, I'm so glad we are best friends and You are so strong and I'm proud of you." That's all I would love to hear.

I like to know everything, I like to know where I stand, are we friends, are we talking, just tell me what I am. I like to know, so I don't second guess. But I like who I am. I like that I'm curvy, kinda tall, I'm pretty smart, with a smart mouth to add, I'm kind (Probably too Kind), but I do have my moments. I'm a huge bitch when I have to be. I'm me and I'm proud of who I am, and what I've done so far and much much more are coming ahead. Everything is going up and I'm gonna cut some people out of my life who can't handle it.

Love Ya
See Ya Later
Emmie <3