Bad Thing? (May 25, 2015)

Hey Guys,

So I probably will regret this later on, but right now I’m gonna have some fun.  So my Ex.. Let’s call him Jeremy decided to Snapchat me and to continue on to Kik me, while I was at work today… Yesterday, whatever. And he was saying sorry and blah, blah, blah.  So I used the opportunity to question him, to know why he did what he did, was break up with me, but not once, but twice. The first time I understood because his mom was like deadly ill and he needed to focus on her and she loved me and I hoped she got better soon and that he would take care of us.  We were still friends on Facebook and Instagram, so I got to see how everything was going.  We started dating and talking again after a few months, this was also my Senior year and when we started talking again I asked him to go to my prom with me and he said he was gonna think about it, but whatever to know the color of my dress, which was Blue, both our favorite color by the way, but anyways  a few weeks later, he calls me on Skype and says we have to break up… again. I didn’t even wanna know why. It was so close to problem, my mom was being a bitch and trying to relive her Prom through me and Senior Pictures were bad, so I just let it be.  Remember how I said we were friends on Facebook and we followed each other on Instagram, checking Instagram a few weeks later and there’s a picture of him and this girl kissing each other and the caption said “Finally have Babe to myself” Yes I remember all of this because it kinda still hurts and his bring back old feelings and memories we shared together. Anyways he broke up with me to date this girl, that I might say didn’t look as good as me, look but for real tho she was cute and I guess she lived closer to him than I did. So today…. yesterday I asked him about it and he said that he was super sorry and blah, blah, blah and wanted to say it face to face; I was going to my Auntie’s house, so we skyped and he said he was really sorry and told me that he thought he could handle his mom’s sickness and date me, but couldn’t, so he stopped talking to me and thought I wouldn’t take him back a third time, so he dated this girl. He said it was stupid teenage stuff and he wants to make it up to me….. NOW HERE’S THE PROBLEM…

This girl has a boyfriend, that is finally going good, and I ain’t gonna fuck it up because you wanna make it up to me. I know how you are when you were with me, just because you said you change, doesn’t really mean you “Changed”. I don’t even know if I want to be friends, because he has hurt me more than my other Exs Trent & Luther.  I’m happy with my boyfriend that I have now, I’m happy with this situation, I’m comfortable. Even tho he doesn’t like being comfortable. I am for now. He’s finally sharing his fucking feelings and calling me Babe, he’s been calling me beautiful, but hearing Babe is equally awesome.

See Ya Later

Emmie <3