Not Feeling Good Enough (June 20, 2015)

Hey guys,

I know it’s been a while since I’ve posted anything, but I’ve been busy with work. Finished my first year of college and now I’m focusing on work and trying to save up money for a car or just to have cash in the bank. But instead of saving money I’m spending money and going out and trying to have good time, but instead of having a good I’m feeling bad because it seems like everyone doesn’t want to hangout with just me, so they invited other people too. So it’s not just me and so and so and so and so. It has to be so and so and so and so and then so and so times 4 like God damn why can’t it just be the three of us or the two of us instead of a huge group. Making it seem like just the two people or three people aren’t worth your attention unless there are other people.

But enough about friendships. Im in a weird and confusing relationship. Weird because I’m not use to it. Confusing because I’m not use to it. But exciting. We might have started off wrong and what not, but we talked and it’s all good. We’ll to me and him it is. To my best friend he thinks I’m stupid. My boyfriend is on his third and last strike. If he messes up its over. Gosh I miss writing.

I also got a promotion at work. No more bagging no more pushing carts. So happy and nervous. It’s something I’m not use to. Yesterday was my first day, but today will be my first day punching in not as a bagger.

See Ya Later

Emmie <3