Hey Guys,
So I don’t like Drug GM like I thought I was going too, I mean yes I don’t have to push carts, or deal with the Bottle Bins, or have to deal with me just being the only person bagging, which is all great don’t get me wrong. What I miss about being a bagger is all the co workers I got to talk too, all the jokes and goofing around and stuff like that, but in Drug GM; THERE’S NO ONE TO TALK TOO?! Like I’m singing to myself, so I don’t go mad. It’s pretty much me, my box cutter and all the stuff I have to put on the shelf. I don’t see how the other 4 people don’t go mad! Like apart of me wants to leave, but apart of me doesn’t want to seem like a failure because I couldn’t handle it. I can handle lifting the stuff, fixing the stuff and making sure the job gets done right, but what I can’t handle is keeping my damn mouth shut and not talking to anyone! I haven’t or talked in that damn place for five days! Which isn’t normal for me! There’s a new girl working up front now and it feels like she’s replacing me and she’s gonna do a better job than me; which isn’t true because I did a damn good job and I set that bar high as it possibly would go, but a little part of me feels that way. But I’m too nice of a person to leave, they need my help, so Imma stay until they don’t need me no more.
Enough about work, let’s talk about friends and boyfriend for a hot second. So LET’S TALK ABOUT FRIENDS!
So I really want to see the movie Inside Out and none of my friends wanted to see it until I showed them the previews and stuff. My “best guy friend” was the hardest one to convince, but I finally got him to want to see it. So we couldn’t see it last week, because he was running late, but we went bowling and had a lot of fun. I still wanna see it, so I was thinking we could go Friday, but I haven’t asked or planned it all the way out yet. I was already having a kinda bad day at work, because of my hair.. sigh, but then I check my messages and my bestie tells me he went to go see it without us. I was already mad at him for what he did the days before and not making me seem like I’m god enough to be his friend, dogging on me back my boyfriend and saying I should be happy that I’m not a bagger anymore, like he just doesn’t understand. Like he doesn’t care to understand because he HAS to be always right even though he isn’t.
Time to talk about Boyfriend…. If I still have one.
I don’t know how many times I have to tell him, that I feel like I’m being used. I don’t need or want him to buy me things or anything like that, all I’m asking is for him to text me or see me when were both free and try to make plans. Like I’m the one planning it or driving to see him and he’s not putting much effort into it. I’m actually thinking of breaking up with him, or ending it. Because I DON’T EVEN KNOW IF IM HIS GIRLFRIEND! Like he calls me Baby, Cutie, Liz, Babe and all that cute shit, but when I do it, it’s a no no. Ugh. He texted me this afternoon and I actually didn’t reply back… I keep trying and trying to hangout, but it’s like he just doesn’t want too. I think I’m done with him. I’m done trying to find a boyfriend. I’m just gonna save up money and when school starts back up focus on that. *Sigh* I actually liked him.
See Ya Later
Emmie <3
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